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Outside, but still hidden.

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I realised I've never drawn Zhaoxie before despite it being one of the most fascinating relationships in Word of Honor. When I saw THESE incredible cloth Zhaoxie dolls in little photoshoot scenes, I was so inspired, and vowed to paint something based on them. (It may have taken months to get around to it but I did it!)

Painted in Procreate.

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[Image description: a painting of Xie'er and Zhao Jing from Word of Honor. Xie'er, in his light blue robes, is on his back under a bush of yellow flowers, his head pillowed on Jhao Jing's cloak, reaching up with his left arm while Zhao Jing hovers above him, hands on the ground wither size of his hips. Xie'er's right hand plucks teaingly at Zhao Jing's blue crane robes to beckon him closer. Zhao Jing looks reserved but fond, as if trying to maintain distance, but can't help his affection for Xie'er slipping through. A shadow from the flowers falls over Xie'er's upper half, while Zhao Jing's back is lit harshly from sunlight, giving them the illusion of privacy.]

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“Yi Fu, I know you’re good at talking. As long as you talk, you can convince me of anything.”

WORD OF HONOR (2021).
Episode 33.

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“You really … you really have very little understanding of Zhao Jing. Did you know, that all his life, he’s been the most proud of his ability to fool everyone around him?”

WORD OF HONOR (2021).
Episode 32.

Do you have any thoughts on Xie Wang and Zhao Jing? (woh version)

veliseraptor answered,

still haven’t read TYK yet (it’s on my list! gotta finish Qiang Jin Jiu first though) so this is in fact the only version of this relationship I could speak to! I have no idea what it looks like in the novel but I do know that the Scorpion King is a very different character there.

so this is a prime case of “got sort of distracted from the main plot by whatever the fuck was going on in that side plot” as is very typical for me in most things I read and watch.

because as I was watching and as I kept watching it just kept getting…weirder and more toxic and as I love Xie Wang an unreasonable amount (give me a pretty man desperate for the approval of an authority figure and willing to do appalling things to make that happen and I’m gone) I kept being like “buddy! stop! you deserve better, ditch his ass” re: Zhao Jing but of course he’s not going to ditch his ass, he can’t, both I think because of a sunk cost fallacy (he’s put in this much effort! can’t stop now!) and like. he loves this guy. don’t understand why personally but there you go

(I don’t remember if we get much/anything about how Xie Wang is tied to Zhao Jing, how they ended up linked together, but I’m fascinated by it.)

but yeah. watching over the course of the series as Xie'er gives his yifu chance after chance despite all evidence that Zhao Jing cares about him only inasmuch as he is useful and would discard him very quickly if it was expeditious to do so, continuing to believe that if he just does one more thing right then…but then he hits the limit of that and does, you know, the normal thing. namely making Zhao Jing utterly dependent on him.

it’s just…he doesn’t kill him, and I think that’s what gets me the most about this absolute mess of a relationship. if he killed him that would be normal, for a given value of normal. but instead when Xie Wang hits the limit of his ability to make excuses for Zhao Jing’s treatment of him, he still wants to keep him, and he arranges things so that he will - so that Zhao Jing will be completely in his power, but he frames it (and I do think he means it) in a way, as taking care of him.

I know it’s not literally a father/son relationship but the best word I have for it is oedipal. as the kids say it’s absolutely rancid and that’s why it remains the part of Word of Honor I think about most. I want nice things for Xie Wang but Xie Wang wants Zhao Jing for Xie Wang which is not actually the same thing even though he’d like it to be. prime example of wanting a thing that’s bad for you. into it.

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About the phrase that Zhao Jing used in his relationship with Luo Fumeng, and then with Xie'er: 君不负我 ,我不负君。In the English subs it was translated as: You won’t fail me, I won’t fail you.

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However, this translations seems a bit like a threat or a warning, and a threat or a warning wouldn’t correspond to the effect this phrase had on Luo Fumeng and Xie'er, and also would be out of Zhao Jing’s style.

The word 君 literally screamed that it is something from the classics so I tried to find out what this phrase is alluded to. I may be mistaken, but I think this is a reference to the rather famous poem To the Tune “Divination"卜算子 by Li Zhiyi 李之儀 (1048-1117):

我住长江头,君住长江尾。
日日思君不见君,共饮长江水。
此水几时休,此恨何时已。
只愿君心似我心,定不负相思意。

Translation by Julian Farmer:

I live at the head of the long Yangtze.
He lives in its furthest reaches.
I think of him, each day, but we never meet.
The drink we share is the Yangtze water.
When will these waters come to rest,
or my regrets finally end?
I only hope his heart’s like mine.
Surely, we won’t betray our longings!

My translation, based on the translation into modern Chinese: 

I live in the upper Yangtze, my beloved lives in the lower Yangtze.
Day after day I think of my beloved, but I do not see him, although we drink the same water from the Yangtze.
When will these waters stop? When will this pain [of separation] end?
If only the heart of my beloved is the same as mine, I will be worthy of his incessant longing for me.

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Unused footage of ZHAO JING & XIE’ER from episode 16 ☔

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我愿意为你放弃曾经那些年少轻狂

I am willing to give up my young and frivolous years for you.

四季予你 程响 / / Four Seasons with You ♫ Cheng Xiang

xie’er looking at zhao jing | ep 32