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Anonymous asked,

i've just started CQL (spoiled to hell and back but having a grand old time) and i wanted to know what you thought of Xue Yang and ASPD? (not trying to call him an ableist slur in a roundabout way, i potentially have a big scary PD myself [though likely not ASPD] and i just think he's neat)

veliseraptor answered,

I think I’ve answered a question like this before (and it’s also come up for other characters) and my general policy is like…when it comes to fictional characters I generally don’t want to put specific modern diagnoses on them, for a number of reasons I’m just averse to doing so as a rule.

I think some of this has to do with how…culturally determined specific diagnoses can be - not saying that diagnoses aren’t real or helpful, just saying that there’s so much overlap and intersection and the specific way people get their stuff named and identified can have a lot to do with where they are, when they are, and who they are.

so basically…sure! maybe! certainly if it resonates with someone who is carrying around a specific diagnoses of one kind or another and that is somehow helpful or meaningful to them, I’m not going to say they shouldn’t roll with the headcanon; more power to them. but for myself specifically I just tend to leave it at “Xue Yang’s got some weird brainstuff going on that impacts how he relates to other people” and write/analyze that in the ways it manifests in his behavior, rather than putting a specific diagnosis name on it and claiming that as my definitive headcanon.

(I do have headcanons about how in a modern AU I think Xue Yang has been thoroughly pathologized throughout his life in a way that is very ableist, but also nobody can really agree on what, exactly, is pathological about him, and certainly there’s not a lot of interest in helping. it’s basically a lot of “people just trying to pick a specific name for what’s "wrong” with him" and it stopping there.)

brightfelon

When people say like “Lestat thought Louis was so agressive and it turned out he was just a gentle boy.” No, that’s not it lol. He’s literally like “I can tell you are playing all these roles and it brings you sorrow” he knows that Louis isn’t actually a cut throat businessman. He knows Louis actually loves his brother and that the whole knife thing was an act. Lestat is actually right about Louis’s repressed rage and passion and capacity for love. What he misjudged was Louis’s ability to rise “above” his humanity. He expected his human passion to transmute into vampire passion, becoming even more intense, a passion to match Lestat’s own.

And it’s not actually out of line for Lestat to expect this, he’s literally never met a vampire that’s had Louis’s trouble before. That’s what makes Louis unique it’s what makes him the vampire It Girl. He still seems like a human and vampires love humanity and want to be as close to it as possible but obviously they can’t. But then here comes Louis, who is uncannily human and emotional and never achieves that vampire detachment and they all want him desperately.

So the thing that Lestat deeply resents Louis for, that he’s not his “companion in the dark gift” is actually the thing he comes to most love about him. Louis will always be able to connect him to life and humanity because he never left it.