#pete saengtham
still kind of sick but ill go insane if i dont sit down n at least sketch rn. something something me losing my mind over kinnporsche’s blatant portrayal of cycles of abuse and how vegas directly picks up on his dad’s tactics and uses them when he’s at his rope’s end. sketches reffed off of two shots that are like just a few minutes apart in episode 11
whoisthatmovinginthedark
Thinking about the safe house experience from Pete's side especially. How those highest of highs and the lowest of lows turned into an eventually unbearable mind-fuck that he needed to get away from no matter how much it hurt him to do so.
And then coming back from it different. And even though he has people who care and want to listen, they're ultimately unable to give him what he needs, because that kind of pain can really only be consoled by the one who caused it (or so it feels) as long as it fucked with his mind too. If it was real.
And there's just something so intimate in sharing pain that only the two of you are able to understand, that when they finally saw each other again, that fleeting moment they were able sob in each other's arms before separating again devastates me in the best possible way.
