MDZS Japanese Audio Drama S2 Episode 3 Cover by GEAROUS
#lwj
wheniseelevimyheartgoesdokidoki
“ Nothing reconciles me. I am alive in your abominable night.”
Paul Claudel, from The Selected Writings; “I Raise my Hands in Despair,”
Happy birthday LWJ …
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lanzhanjun
sometimes i think about lwj at the cliff edge, saying quietly and carefully to wwx, “回來吧?” and translated, it’s “come back” but it’s also a question — a plead essentially — and when do you ever hear the great hanguang jun pleading but when the love of his life is about to take his own life
also lwj doesn’t say “come here” or “stop” or “don’t do it”. he asks wwx to come back, to return to him. he gives wwx a choice and an option. he asks wwx to come back to me, please?
lanzhn
what I really love about Lan Wangji’s character development is that his personality doesn’t change, but his acceptance of who he is does. he is calm, he is prude, he is quiet, and he is righteous, those are all things that are deeply part of him, but they are not the only ones.
when he was younger he could not reconcile being calm but having strong feelings, being prude but wanting someone, being quiet but having loud thoughts, and being righteous but loving someone his sect disapproves of. but then as he grows older, and is shaped by the events of his life and grief, he learns to not be rigid anymore, that he can be the collected Hanguang-Jun and also the passionate Lan Zhan.
before, he held himself back and denied anything that felt contradictory, now he accepts all sides and know they are not opposites but just different parts of himself. his calm is a side of himself as much as his feeelings are, they can both exist inside not in opposition but in continuity, and so can his reserve and his desire, his silence and his thoughts, his love for his sect and his love for Wei Ying. he truly learns to be himself and not be torn anymore between the pressure to be a perfect disciple and wanting happiness, he learns both can be done.
the Lan is a part of who he is, but there is not just one way to be a Lan, he does not have to repress anything to be Lan Wangji, quite the opposite. besides, isn’t being a passionate lover part of being a Lan anyways?
