#alice isn't dead
i feel like my interpretation of the narrator is a little young looking but….”Alice Isn’t Dead” is pretty cool.
I don’t know where this trip started, what counts as the first moment. But for a lack of a better answer, I’ll start with this: I mourned you, Alice. I’ve never loved anyone so hard. From my goddamn gut.
I need you to hear all of this, not just the parts you want to hear. I don’t know if you deserve forgiveness, and maybe I don’t care. Maybe there isn’t some great balance sheet where the equation of guilt can be figured until it’s all equal on both sides. And maybe it’s just what the person who has hurt feels, right or wrong. And if so then – I don’t wanna think about what you deserve. I wanna think about what I deserve […] I deserve to live a happy life. I deserve to have my wife who I love at my side. I deserve to wake easy in the morning and to fall asleep easy at night. I deserve to not have what you did intruding into our lives. So I want you to understand this: in order to have what I deserve, I must forgive you. But I’m not forgiving you for you. I’m forgiving you because it’s what I deserve.
— Alice Isn’t Dead (Part 3, Chapter 8: To Forgive)
