there's an ocean between christ and myself
please don't follow me i just want to talk to myself

I haven’t eaten since five pm yesterday except for a granola bar this morning. I want to see how far I can push it. I’ve done a day before but never more than that. This unfortunately isn’t the way to kill myself I’ve gone over it many times in my head and it isn’t foolproof. But it will do damage. And maybe just maybe if I do enough damage there can be a window for more. Cigarettes are my best friend